Rising from the ashes
It's hard to know where to begin with this. I've been reflecting a lot on the past 2 months. It's been a literal trial by fire. In this short time there have been so many stories. Inspiring stories of community, coming together, love, helping one another, miracles... And at the same time, just as many sad stories of devastation, fear, friends losing their homes... I created this Phoenix piece while contemplating all this. Why was our house spared? Why wasn't the neighbors spared? When will the air be clean enough to return home? Where will I stay tonight? Where is the cat staying tonight?
I am very grateful for all of the support that I have received during all of this, and I'm grateful to be back home safely writing this now.
I'm back, and life is starting to return to normal again- but it isn't really.
I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing, but it does make me feel a bit numb... and sometimes sad. Maybe that's just from the trauma, I'm not sure.
The point is, I've changed. It's not something that I can clearly define- yet there is an unmistakable knowing that I cannot continue to operate the way that I have up until now.
You might be wondering what I mean by that, or how I will operate from now on, or you might think I'm being dramatic. The truth is, I'm wondering too- I'm still trying to figure it out.
I feel like these really challenging existential moments are useful, if we allow them to be. Like a snake shedding its skin, let go of the old so the new can be revealed.
I guess what I'm trying to say to anyone reading is this:
If life is hard, and shit doesn't make sense, and you are questioning everything, and it's not fair, or maybe you deserve it, or you just want to break down and cry... You're not alone.
The destruction, loss and failure of what was can become the fuel and inspiration for something beautiful yet to come.
Let's rise together, and create something worth failing for. I'll see you there. 💫💛💫 #art #reflection #honest #fire #ojaistrong #ojai #grateful #digitalart #digitalart #digitalpainting