I've got a meeting with someone at uni tomorrow and I'm not sure quite what to expect. I had one last week which wasn't too scary as it with services that are supposed to support students, though there wasn't much they could tell me.
For the past six months I've been off uni, in a combination of sick leave, being essentially awol, and on intermission (temporary withdrawal from my PhD; in laypersons terms, 'on a break').
For most of this time I wasn't able to deal with any communications from uni (or many people, or admin, or for the most part, myself), and have been relatively unsupported. In the past few weeks I've been doing a little bit better, probably due to a combination of factors, but significantly that I've felt more support. Consequently I've been able to do things like open post and emails (which had been aggregating), and managed to get in touch with uni in time for the deadline of the end of October, after which I was told they'd take action for my permanent withdrawal (in lay people terms: kick me out). Despite this, there appears to be some contention as to whether I met that requirement (though everyone who has seen the letter I received interprets that I did), and it seems that the subject of my exclusion vs intermission vs being allowed to stay is very much in the balance.
At this stage I don't know whether I can go back (for various reasons), what circumstances might be different if I were able to, or whether they or I want me to, given these circumstances.
Moreover, if I don't, I don't know what this will mean either.
In the meeting I had last week, I was essentially told (gently) to expect/prepare for the worst and also to think about what I would want to do if I didn't return.
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